I think I’ve been in a funk for a while at Yale because I’m caught up in a routine of things that aren’t always everything I know I love.
So resolutions for when I get out into the real world:
1. Start eating clean, vegan, and raw whenever I can. I’ve been thinking about it for a while, but the dining halls are hard to do as a vegan unless you like bland raw tofu. Tonight’s vegan night with Claire and Henry proved to me that I can get the protein and nutrients I need with beans and veggies, and still feel full and happy. And so much more energetic than I usually feel after dinner at Henry’s place!
2. Go back to yoga twice a week, every week. I miss the strength and flexibility I felt while doing yoga frequently, and the airy feeling after a good yoga session. I miss being able to twist and contort my body and not feel pain. And I miss feeling my arms shake and muscles I didn’t even know I had contract.
3. Run. Far and Fast. This has been on my mind ever since I started listening to Runaway on repeat. Freshman year, I used to run mile after mile just to ignore whatever problem was on my plate. And then I just stopped. I miss the feeling of the pavement slapping my feet and the sunshine on my face. I miss the feeling of burning, empty lungs and the tiny voice in the back of my mind going “You’re almost there. Just a few more blocks. You really can do this.” I never felt more fit than when I was running, and I miss the love I had for my body in that moment.
4. Keep up the things I do now that I do love. I’ve often complained that I will never dance again after Yale. I’ll never find a dance group that I love as much as Danceworks. But I know that’s just not true. I may have to focus on a particular style, but I will find a studio somewhere, wherever I am. And I can always find a local community theater and volunteer to help with youth acting classes. I don’t have to give up everything I know and love just because it’s not handed to me. I can go out and search for happiness, because I am an adult and that’s what adults do.
Next step, keep a resolution for once in my life.
Fun Fact: I am VERY bad at hydrating myself. If I ever die unexpectedly it’s probably because I just forgot to drink water for a week.
she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
she’s cheer captain and I respect her right to wear whatever she wants and participate in traditionally ‘feminine’ activities because I understand that life is not about condemning another woman’s personal choices just because she doesn’t ‘deserve’ the boy i have a crush on